Sayuri Kita
UKE - female
age : 17
hair: light blue (short)
eyes: light green
ht: 5'2
wt: 111
build: lithe and graceful
fav food: fresh fish


Giuseppina Salvaggio
SEME - Female
age: 239
hair: black (long)
eyes; ruby
ht: 5'11
wt: 150
build: voluptous
fav food: blood and plasma

So unaffectionate, so insecure
You claim to know a thing or two about heartache
And what it's like to have your insides torn out
And I believe you
I see it every time your pallbearer's pallor is obscured
By the darkness dancing across your face
And when the blackness veils your eyes in pain

I know what it's like when memories make you wince
And love letters read like obituaries
And photo albums are the books of the dead
I need no reminders
No more reminders
I'll forget the past and lay it to rest

If I had my way I'd cut the calluses
Off your breaking heart
If I could get past the sternum
Cauterize those wounds with every kiss I could give to you
I'm holding your heart in my hands
The reason it still beats

Am I being too cryptic?
Am I being too obscure?
Love kills
Romance is dead
And I don't even trust myself
But I love you
And you can pull my wings apart
And pin me down under glass
Until the end of days
If it can help you discover that we share the same pain
I just hope you write your thesis before your subject is dead
No life after death

mood: confused music: Atryu - demonology and Heartache

Three to Four Weeks.

That's all I have left with you if something doesn't change.
As the time dwindles down like sand in a hourglass
my heart dies while slowing it's beat a little more each day.
Sleep doesn't comfort this heart of mine.
Food feels like dirt in my mouth.
The peace I once took in drink doesn't even help.
I've reached a point where I'm afraid.
I still wake up everyday and try to find hope.
I still try to find a job.
I even considered two jobs.
I don't know what will happen anymore though.
I try not to get angry and lash out at you.

You said you'd keep me forever. . .
you'd never let me go no matter what. . .
You said I could have you if I wanted you. . .
You and your mom both supposedly opened your doors to me. . .
You said all these things and yet. . .
now am I to be thrown to the curb?
How could you say those things to me and not mean them?
How could you make such promises and apparently
not intend on keeping them?
Have I not proved myself to be as I said I was?

Have I not loved you whole-heartily with everything in me?
Have I not shown you that I would give you anything and do anything I could to help you?
Have I not shown you the Hell I would go through for you?

Has my words and deeds fallen on a deaf heart as well as ears?

And now I'm here wordless and numb.
I only wish that when that last day, that last kiss, that last hug comes. . .
that you will say "I'll never Let You Go" and mean it. . . .

I hope you know that if you let me go. . .you're making a mistake.
I gave you and was willing to give you everything
Every thing Joel Belman.

mood: numb music: while you lips are still red - Nightwish

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=renee

Yes, I am lame.
I looked myself up on urban dictionary XD

Apparently a lot of people think I have a great ass XD
kekekekekekeek! xD

mood: amused

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So, I did something you don't usually do if you're a chick unless you got some kinda balls. lol
I asked Shane out on a date tonight.
He refused becuz he's traditional and and he wants to take ME out. lol
He might still take me out if he has a good paycheck this Friday. : /
I don't want him to spend money on me not becuz I wouldn't be grateful.
It's because I'll have more money and i wanna treat everyone this Friday dammit! lol
We're going to Numb3rs this friday Night for 80's nite!
It's gonna be so fukkin sweet! I can't waaaaiiit *'splodes*

This is Numb3rs: http://www.numbersnightclub.com/


I stayed on the phone with him and he told me I shouldn't cook so much so I could call him more.
o^^o;; lol I REEEEEAAAALLLLY like him. i know i shouldn't but Jeebuz I do TT_TT

yesh, in his words "I'm a Dayum Kandy Kid! Blow Me xD"




He just looks hawt in this one o^^o;;;;;;

location: Computer Room/Home mood: happy music: Arnie's Raver Mix : D

Lyrics from the Smashing Pumpkins Song
"That's the way (My Love Is)"


They say that life ain't easy
They'll say your life's a crime
Destroy up all good reason
How I'm alive

They'll say that nothing matters
Not even your will to survive
Of course I love you baby
'Cause I'm alive
Yes, I'm alive

Whenever I call you out
Whenever I draw you round
Whenever is here and now

That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
I'm always there for you
Yeah, I'm always there for you

They'll say you'll lose your nerve soon

To claim identity
Disgrace our sacred promise
With no belief
Oh, how I believe in you

That's the way my love is for you
That's the way my love is for you

I feel a coming age now
I feel a dawn in me
A certain sun keeps rising
On my belief in you

That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
'Cause I'm always there for you
That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
'Cause I'm always there for you
Yeah, I'm always there for you

location: Home in Katy mood: happy music: Smashing Pumpkins "That's the way my Love Is"